Matthew D. Rowe

Poems and Other Coincidences

Month: January, 2012

Under the Fleeing Sun

Under the fleeing sun,

we run,

we run.

 

Our legs move us

through unanswerable

questions,

 

past unrequited

passion,

 

and into a boxed realm

of miraculous

certainty.

 

When we arrive

we realize,

certainly,

that where we want to be

is always on the run,

 

under the fleeing sun.

Boundaries Breaker

It’s not carelessness

More like selective reason,

Lines bellow in choice.

One with Legs for Forever

Unmatched heart stopper,

Be kind when we can’t resist

Legs for forever.

Nightmare

A kind, sobbing voice

Pleading through the walls for peace,

Green lighted blind eyes.

Kisses like Surgery

Her kisses are like

Lightspeed cosmic surgery

Falling lost with stars.

Realist Type, or How We Might be Drunk on Several Bottles of Poems

Reason is truth,

sip of wine.

 

Truth is manipulative,

chug from bottle.

 

Truth is sincere,

finish glass.

 

Truth does not exist,

only compassion.

 

Break empty bottle on table.

 

Compassion is merely warmth,

open another bottle.

 

Warm is body and soul

from this bottle and poems.

 

Pour another glass.

 

Body from bottle,

soul from poems.

 

Savor taste.

 

Bottle makes body,

poems is soul.

 

Stare blankly at ceiling.

 

Bottle takes over soul,

leaves mind to wander.

 

Wandering mind encounters mysterious bottle,

consumes uplifting substance,

meets soul,

enters bottle,

becomes poem.

 

Poem becomes soul,

interpreted by body,

controlled by mind.

 

Enjoyed by some.

 

Mind loses control,

convinces body to let go soul.

 

Poem disintegrates,

only to eventually become soul,

spirit,

mind full of bottle thoughts again.

 

Mind lost in a bottle of poems,

influenced by the power of soul.

 

Think about pouring another glass.

 

Soul breaks free poems entrapped in bottle,

mind finds winding road out.

 

Poems of ages ensue.

Xerox My Heart in a Pile of Copies of Copies in a Coffin

I Xerox-copied my heart

for you.

 

It’s not the phony Hallmark

kind.

 

But my real, bloody,

beating, pumping,

ethereal,

lung-loving heart.

 

I put it in a warm

splintered coffin,

with the rest of

your hearts,

and mailed it to you.

 

Be careful

when you open it,

when you pull the nails out,

some of them are

actually poisonous scorpions.

 

When you get through

the dead histories

and poison

and hearts

in the coffin,

to my

Xerox-copied heart,

hang it on your fridge

with all the other

Xerox copies,

and copies

of copies

of

copies

of my heart.

 

They are all you will ever get.

 

And you can keep the coffin

and splinters,

for your collection,

I wont ever need them.

Drugstore Calligraphy

Want to be with people

occupying busy corridors, summits, bungalows,

gateways to intellectual thought processes.

Creativity spawning out of the angst perpetuated by others.

Vicarious spiritual impalement.

Cannot live with it, cannot live without it,

and can stand that even less.

 

Want to be in dark, reclusive place,

in unobtrusive state.

Mind cannot make connections like it’s used to.

Thoughts present,

obstructed by violent, piercing, reciprocal

aching of tooth.

 

Results of undertaking rebellious lifestyle,

I’ll do it only because you told me not to.

Chew tobacco eat candy bars psychedelic fungus drink beer,

don’t brush teeth—no time in busy schedule given me.

Given by caste system, Neo-aristocratic,

three-piece-suit-robe-wearing,

baby-boomers think they know best most effective way to live.

 

Deep hole dug now, only way down,

need bigger shovel.

Dig out the roots of this tooth while you’re down there.

 

You did this to me.

No time to work 9-5 for oral insurance,

too busy gutlessly going through motions of academia.

Detesting,

all the while walking in order with other

ants, slaves, blood flowing cold machines.

 

Compiling Bullshit,

More Shit,

Piled High & Deep.

While the roots of what make us advanced beings

deteriorate, crumble, rot, decompose

inside mouth & outside of control.

Evolve opposable thumbs to apply pressure,

suppress wincing of big picture.

 

Sir, you want me to not talk?

Is that why you make false, unanswered promises

to my mouth?

The only tool I have,

take it away, silence me?

 

Make me need insurance plan,

buy into corporate, crony, consumerist agenda?

me pay insurance company,

me pay hospital bill,

me pay doctor’s wages.

Doctor paid off by pharmaceutical company,

pharmaceutical company buy out doctors, lawyers, lobbyists.

 

Pharmaceutical company cronies get big bonuses,

fancy, lavish parties,

homosexual orgies,

prostitutes profit,

congressmen profit under silk, velvet, superficial sheets,

male-cum-filled.

On surface

right-wing, ultra-conservative, Yes Prop 8

free trade best trade

money monsters,

fear employers.

 

And here I am,

twenty thou. deep into fed’s wallet,

bum-kneed,

rotting-mouthed,

stressed out,

intellectually unsatisfied,

depressed,

and kept from everything I love.

 

Let me be.

But stop leaving me alone, Sir.

Stop making promises to millionaires/billionaires,

so that I can make honest living.

Leave my pockets alone,

I don’t need holes in them,

my teeth are holes enough.

 

Do not tax my personal time,

don’t tax my health,

my lack thereof.

Don’t make me buy into your scheme, it’s dirty.

I know it’s dirty under necktie & and never-present 5 o’clock shadows.

 

I know you aren’t real,

stop haunting my sleep.

Please, do not tax that too.

I’ll pull this fucking tooth right out.

 

Is that what you want?

Little silence, little puppet?

Then let the throbbing pain,

foul taste,

profuse breath,

migraine distraught pounding,

inability to focus,

ex-patriotism slavery persist.

 

I will not think for you.

Love in the Form of Falling Banners

Today

I was reading a poem.

 

Something about love

in the form of falling banners.

 

I bit the left

inside corner of my lip.

 

An arsenal of blood

filled my anxious mouth.

 

Doubt littered my

analytical heart.

 

I thought of you,

and how comfortably naked

we can be together.

 

Clothingless in conversation,

void of communicable filters.

Curiously roaming worlds

of non-material speech & intuition.

 

The blood & pain & falling

banners

made me glad

to love you.

Hummingbirds Paint My Vision

Hummingbirds

paint my vision.

 

Flutter your ephemeral

philosophies,

like sweet memories

into my ears.

 

Tweet ‘round my mind

passionate dialogues

on thoughts deviant

and

the dangers

of polarity.

 

Pluck my eyelids

full of

uncanny dreams

and

lustrous fictions.

 

Peck my thoughts,

draw my guilt-stained

practicality

and

suck my second-guessing

conscience.

 

Hummingbirds,

pluck my eyes,

peck my thoughts,

paint my vision.

 

Smother your infinite

nothingness

into me.